The exact same day I turned one month sober my father passed away.
Everyone in my family panicked because they feared I would fall back into alcohol right away. I too panicked, fearing that all my efforts to end the hell that had been my life — especially in the last year — would be gone in the blink of an eye.
But they didn’t. Surprisingly enough, I stayed sober to this day. And the most important thing is that this is the first and only time in my life that I’ve managed to give up alcohol and have zero intention of drinking again. Ever.
Because this isn’t actually the first time I’ve tried to quit alcohol, you know? But it is the only time I’ve done it for myself and not out of obligation, and this definitely makes a HUGE difference in succeeding or not.
I was diagnosed with alcohol use disorder at 27, but truth is, I’ve been a problem drinker (I don’t like the word ‘alcoholic’) since I was a teenager. Now I’m 36 and happily sober and, TBH, I still can’t believe it.
If back then someone had told me that a (fun) life without alcohol or other drugs is possible, I would have laughed in their face. Because I was an extreme party girl, a free spirit. A rebellious, self-distructive kid who wouldn’t have survived at all the Swinging 60s or the Coc*ine 80s, and who always hid behind the bottle when things went bad.
But look at me now… Who would have imagined (twenty, ten… or even one year ago) that I’d be able to cope with the death of my father in the most healthy way, without having a breakdown, and even launching a blog on addiction recovery.
Through this blog and my social media, I want to help people who are struggling with addiction, especially those who have no hope that recovery is possible.
Well, it is possible, and it is WAY better than you might think.
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Peace, love & happiness!